kerana tangan kamu semua banyak kuman~

hey lelaki;

malam tadi ada yang datang,
mencari aku..

agak susah dia ketemu:
kerana harus disuluh terang
dikutip setiap cebisan..

pabila sudah jumpa
dia jadi hairan.

aku tanyakan;
kenapa?

dia diam terkelu

rupanya aku
dah tak seperti dulu

jantung di luar,
wajah tak berwarna
dan hatiku tak dia jumpa

aku lupa..
semua telah kau pulangkan
dan ku ambil semula

kecuali yang satu itu

jadinya aku mohon..
kalau datang dia pada kamu,

tolong sembunyikan yang satu itu
simpankan untuk aku

jangan serahkan walau dia merayu

aku tak mahu,
yang aku jaga itu;
disentuh terlalu ramai bertalu-talu.

nanti susah mahu kubersihkan
kamu tahu?


(somebody get me out of this please~)

dialog sama kak fynn..sangat terkesan

Aishah: kakak..kamu free?nak kacau dgn soalan

Fynn: silakan
:):)

Aishah: kakak tahu when to let go?
i love cinta disampahkan
suka
skrg saya ada rasa pada satu orang
tak patut di rasa apa2
dia tunangan orang

Fynn: when to let go.

Aishah: n i can't find reason to leave

Fynn: a very2 good question
but i fear u wont like the answer

Aishah: it's ok

Fynn: the time to let go is WHEN you say it is the time to let go

Aishah: sometimes kita tahu jawapan..tapi nak org lain bg kepastian

Fynn: people can say / shout / ask / force you to let go
but if you are not ready, then you are not
but if you are not ready, then you are not

Aishah: that's a good one..

Fynn: what i did before was this: i just keep on crying

Aishah: tak ada org pernah cakap

Fynn: until i realize it's just stupid
i wait until im tired of more crying
by time, the tears will be less

Aishah: n u'll come sick of it?

Fynn: and i start holding my shoulders (betul2 ni tau), and say out loud, or at least to my own ears "ok. cukup untuk hari ini"
u learn to pujuk ur self.
at the end of the day, u are alone in this life
no real friends, no need to kacau the family
u are ur best teacher
teach urself

Aishah: tuhan marah tak kak?

Fynn: and after a while, when u realize u worth so much more than u sell urself for, u will laugh on this matter
marah pasal apa?

Aishah: meaning i have to follow what my heary says?
heart

Fynn: semua yang mendatangkan keburukan akan dimarah tuhan

Aishah: marah atas rasa yg saya ada?

Fynn: its up to u to answer
who knows what the heart says?
for all we know, it could be the whispers of shaitan

Aishah: that's the problem

Fynn: kan?
do what u think u want to do

Aishah: how to listen to your damn heart

Fynn: but be responsible for it
if u wanna cry all the way, know what is coming on
if u wanna move on, know were ure going
how do i know
its ur heart

Aishah: emmm...

Fynn: u cant ask me how to listen to urs, can u?

Aishah: hati mana boleh cakap
rasa kat mana ada pun tak tahu
then i think i'll keep on crying every night

Fynn: then cry everynight

Aishah: penat tu akan sampai?

Fynn: i bet u 500 rm u wont cry everyday
u'll be darn tired
now, yes
u'll cry and annoy everyone next to u
but this phase shall pass
u'll realize all of this are bullshits.

Aishah: hehe 500..

Fynn: and u weigh more than 500 kg gold

Aishah: lebih tinggi..is it

Aishah: kadang2 boleh hilang nilai tinggi tu...macam kabur'

Fynn: ah
its all up to u

Aishah: hanya sebab degil

Fynn: cry more
later u;ll stop la

Aishah: the time to let go is WHEN you say it is the time to let go

Fynn: semua org degil, bila dtg personal opinion

Aishah: never think of it that way

Fynn: kalau tak degil, bosan

Aishah: betul

Fynn: yup

Aishah: ikut arus,cakap orang=takde life on my own
your answer...i'll try
sounds sensible enough

Fynn: :):)

Aishah: cry
sometimes for no reason

Fynn: my method: no forcing. follow the flow

Aishah:

Fynn is no longer online. The following was not sent:

tak perlu buat apa yg kamu rasa taknak buat.. (send as a message)
thanks kakak
sangat2
you get me in touch with reality

Fynn: :):)
well im just being straight
others are trying to jaga hati u
or plain dont care

Aishah: very true

Fynn: u take care, love

Aishah: or berlagak pandai
u take care too

Fynn: cry. penat nanti, diam la.

Aishah: i do love you
=)=)
keep on being strong as you are

Fynn: thank you sayang
im trying my best to be strong
im trying my best to be strong

Aishah: you are
menangis tanda kuat dan gagah
you're still here..so you are

i love her poetry, i love to see her performing what she feels..and kak fynn, i love the way i can relate and connect to you even when we have never seen each other..hubungan dalam talian..kerana umat itu satu..dan rasa kita sama.

puisi cinta disampahkan
puisi perempuan curang

okey..aishah akan teruskan menangis lagi..sampai penat. sebab belum rasa mahu let go