Wednesday, February 16, 2011

transition period

it's the feeling when you finished reading a damn good book.
you cried reading it
you grinned
you smiled
you laughed
you sobbed

people thought you were crazy. crying over a book.

kamu baca buku yang sangat indah tulisannya
kamu rasa seperti kamu hidup di dalam setiap huruf di dalam karyanya


you don't want the story to end
yet you want to know the ending

you wished for a fairytale ending
but you knew better that the author would find pleasure in not doing so

you thought you know how the story would end
but as always, things won't go the way you want them to



on the very last page.
it was like being in a museum
you wanted to capture everything
you wanted to grab everything you can
but you know you are losing it anyways

then you finished reading it.



you put the book down

but the story keeps playing in your head
the good feeling stays
the hatred stays
the ecstasy stays
they lingers

you become numb



you don't ever want to read another book.

kamu takut segala yang indah tentang buku yang itu terlepas dari kamu.
kamu menikmati keindahan setiap helaian kata di buku yang itu

(this piece could have sound better if i wrote it in malay!)

going on,

THEN you come into a bookstore

not intentionally.




and i was really talking about books. no other.
perhaps.
a very very good book.
you feel like killing the author.





*most of my entries did not receive enough thinking time before they were written and being published. nor edited. dan saya selalu terlepas mahu balas komen sehinggalah saya betul2 menghadap blog. jadi, maafkanlah plis.

:)


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7 comments:

tepianmuara said...

Itu.


sungguh memang selalu terjadi.
( The Kite Runner, Tuhan Manusia antaranya)

dan...dan..

oh, you are strictly talking about books.

Anonymous said...

buku yang bisa membuat kita rasa bertuhan...
buku yg bisa membuat kita menangis apbla mengenangkan dosa2 lalu...
buku yang membuatkan diri kita dekat kepada pencipta kita adlh buku yg terbaik...

Anonymous said...

Aisyah,sy tahu semua yang jadi pada kamu. mcm mana kamu boleh teruskan?bukan cuma psl lelaki,tp lebih lg. klu sy jd aisyah,mngkin sy pilih utk tak hidup lg

hamshira said...

tepianmuara,

yes yes, strictly books.
*senyum*

for me, it's bumi cinta by habiburrahman, charlie and the choc factory by roald dahl(ya, kanak2) and a thousand splendid suns. (among others). since i've not read the kite runner yet.



dan masih.

hamshira said...

anonymous,
:)
ya tentu.
untuk saya, selepas al quran, alam yang terbentang inilah buku yang paling indah.
malah rahsianya tak tertafsirkan.
khazanahnya tak tefikirkan.

emmm, kalau yang ditulis orang dan diilhamkan Tuhan dengan penulisan yang baik, saya calonkan falsafah hidup oleh pak hamka, dan juga di bawah lindungan kaabah. juga 'hadha 'd-din' oleh sayyid qutb. emm, dan rindu ibu, oleh pak samad said

:)






anonymous 2,
saya kenal kamu?

Anonymous said...

anonymous 2 :

"klu sy jd aisyah,mngkin sy pilih utk tak hidup lg"

bagi sy sungguh kalo sedemikian kamu rasa, seolah-olah hidup kamu tak berasakan tuhankah sehingga begitu sekali kata-kata kamu,

istighfar la bnyk2....

kita patut rasa beruntung di lahirkan dlm kalagn umat Muhammad...
dikurniakan islam
disuluhi AL-Quran dan As-sunnah...

dekati ALLAH yer...

aisyah : benar kata kamu AL-QURAN penawar hati... tersimpan pelbagai ungkpn indah.... subhanallah

hamshira said...

:)

perempuan

bismillah

It’s a habit of yours to walk slowly.
You hold a grudge for years.
With such heaviness, how can you be modest?
With such attachments, do you expect to arrive anywhere?

Be wide as the air to learn a secret.
Right now you’re equal portions clay
and water, thick mud.

Abraham learned how the sun and moon and the stars all set.
He said, No longer will I try to assign partners for God.

You are so weak. Give up to Grace.
The ocean takes care of each wave
till it gets to the shore.
You need more help than you know.
You’re trying to live your life in open scaffolding.
Say Bismillah, In the Name of God,
as the priest does with a knife when he offers an animal.

Bismillah your old self
to find your real name.


Maulana Jalaludin Rumi

FOR HEAVEN'S SAKE, MY HEART!

By Gibran

For heaven's sake, my heart, keep secret your love,
and hide the secret from those you see
and you will have better fortune.

He who reveals secrets is considered fool;
silence and secrecy are much better for him
who falls in love.

For heaven's sake, my heart, if someone asks,
"What has happened?" do not answer.
If you are asked, 'Who is she?"
Say she is in love with another.
And pretend that it is of no consequence.

For heaven's sake, my love, conceal your passion;
your sickness is also your medicine because love
to the soul is as wine in a glass- what you
see is liquid, what is hidden is its spirit.

For heaven's sake, my heart, conceal your troubles;
then, should the seas roar and the skies fall,
you will be safe.



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